Obsession

Obsession

I try to explain it away
Is it a trick of the mind?
Where delusions hold sway
As reality is left behind
Those feelings I conceal
All twisting to get free
I cannot risk and reveal
Just what you mean to me

I try to understand it
Work out what it means
And when that misery hit
Haunted by those scenes
You never cease to amaze
Perfection comes so easy
Entranced in your gaze
All I could wish to see

I try figure it all out
The constant confusion
What I'd thinking about
Each and every delusion
Dreams beyond my control
Broken sleepless nights
Torment a weakened soul
With unattainable sights

I try to find a solution
Bring an end to the pain
This emotional execution
Never to be happy again
When all hope has died
For this is a lost cause
All these tears I cried
As I'll never be yours

I try to end the despair
Cancel out my depression
As I'm forced to declare
You're my only obsession
All my dreams you steal
Waking life seeming cold
Wounds to deep to heal
Alone, no-one to hold

The obsession just burns
Reducing my soul to dust
When it foolishly yearns
For this pathetic lust
Solitude cast in stone
Destroying my cold heart
I'm destined to be alone
Why must we be apart...?